I heavnt really bothered writing on here in a while, i just havnt really been writing in general. So much going on i really dont know how to feel about it. Divorce, forclosure, moving and the list goes on. I thought i had someone to care and love me through it but that turned out to be a bust. Though for all the hurt i feel and the wanting to hate him my heart would never allow it. My lifes been off and more off as the days go by. When i get home i will be alone, with only my htoughts to sit with me. I have a lot resting on me and i dont know exactly how to handle it all. once im home i have to pack, i have to do cleaning i have to prepare. While my moms off working or doing things to hopefully make ourlives better. I just feel i cant handle it. I feel so lost, i dont have anyone to anchor me here anymore. i dont have anyone to love or feel will stay beside me anymore. Why should i try and trust another person when i know they will leave in the end. Life has nor been very well to me the past few years. My parents were arguing more and more, 2 of my best friends died, for stupid reasons, and the only person i had was my boyfriend, but he left to. It hurts to think you wasted so much time building something for it to end. My heart aches for the loss of something i knew never was or could be, yes the comfort of knowing someone was there was all i wanted. Now i dont even have that. I hurt inside and out, i just wish ih ad the clearity to not feel so lost and move forward with it all.
Staring at the opens fields she sighed a breath of relief. Alone at last she thought looking past the hills full of the flowers she only saw in her dreams. To finally reach this place so familiar yet distant to her. She smiled sitting on the top of the highest hill looking down. She looked down the hill to see the people sitting on a sheet having a pick-nick. This she had seen a million times before this one seen always in her mind. She smiled at the thought of having that family setting she saw before her, though she knew this place she was at now those people before her the flowers she dreamed of were all just a mirage, all fake, within her mind.
Her eyes opened with a flash and she lay once again on the metal table. “What now?” she asked. The year now was 4011, all people wore masks their bodies hidden beneath the protective suits. She sighed softly thinking back to her thoughts. No one knew why but she was the one who knew it all. The days before the endings of earth. She knew what it was like back before the atmosphere crashed in on itself. The earth as we knew it was no more then craters mixed within out universe. People have adapted to the so called life but she felt the pain of it so real to see what it could have been.
She pulled away from the different scientists as they muttered looking of papaers apong papers of different data. She sighed and walked out of the room her sute covering her head to toe supplying the life giving oxygen. She walked down a few halls and into a room, there in the small room lay a small boy, she smiled through the glass dome that covered her head. He smiled back, but no need for a suit. He was one of the “aliens” we called them, human in every way except one. Through the years since the destruction it effected people some became able to breath without the suit she had to wear. They were the knew generation. They are trying to find out how we could harness that, and create a new atmosphere.
“Have you any food?” the boy asked softly her eyes piercing blue never leaving her face. She nodded to him and smiled pulling a sandwich from the pocket on her suit. “For you” she said holding it out. “I must go now” she said and started out of the room the door closing behind her and then the click of the locks echoed through the halls. “We treat them like prisoners, they will be the ones to protect human life” she whispered thinking to herself.
The days muddled together with dragging agony. Every day she was tested put into the fake sleep and every day the hills and the pick-nick came to her sights. She walked through the streets and looked at the fairy, an old ship made able to float from the different isles that were Earth. She walked onto one going to the eastern sides of Earth. Moments later getting off on a small piece of rock floating through the endless atmosphere. She sighed and walked to the only house on it, hers she walked in and the cameras locked onto her and she stared at them with great distaste.
No gravity left things thrown around without a car. She pressed a button on the wall and everything fell to the floor with a thud and crash. Her feet hit and gravity lay heavy on her should. She looked at the screen to the left of the button a bar slowly going from red to orange and finally green. She unzipped the suit with a hiss as it slid off. She felt sorry for the many who didn’t have the luxuries she did.
Walking away from the living room and back to the bathroom. She stepped into a silver tub as she threw the pales of water over her. Hot yet quickly getting cold as she shivered under it. As soon as her makeshift bath started it was over. Putting on a thermal outfit she walked back to her living room, pulling a small book off the table she sit there beginning to read.
Suddenly a loud echoing boom was heard through out the different cities. She looked out the window to see the blast of red flares from the sun. She sighed thinking of the many people who probably just died because they had no were to be inside.
Her eyes closed and soon came the dreams again. “Run away” she heard the voices screaming. “Hide yourself” she heard more frantic. Her dream no longer the inviting fields and hills, now were filled with the earth breaking the lava coming from the center of the earth people falling people dieng. So much death she thought as she was seemingly above them all. The earth cracked again the plates racking the earth with every quake that hit it.
She woke with tears on her cheeks. No sooner did she have this dream then the scientists showed up. She explained her dream with every excruciating detail as they wrote word for word what happened. Soon she was alone again and with her thoughts brought the horrid realization. She was there so long ago maybe not as herself but someone, someone now dead and gone from life due to it, possibly what would have been her family.
She shook her head and looked down at her shaking hands. She would figure this out if it killed her, she told herself. With her suit on she walked out knowing the cameras were fallowing her got on the fairy and before it docked jumped into the open nothing. Moving her way to the next isle. Cameras couldn’t track her as accurately as the scientists wished old cameras told the ones she was approaching, so getting off sooner she evaded them. Soon she hit the isle with a soft thud the science labs laying before her. She would figure this out.
Einstein said that he didn’t know what weapons would be used in WW3, but that WW4 would be fought with sticks and stones.
How many of you would really think thats true? Personaly I do. People are arguing over some of the smallest things, ya know were all people we all have taht thing that makes us want to live and creat a better life whether you speak english french or spanish, were all people. So why must we fight over so many things instead of helping our fellow people. I heard a song on youtube that will be posted later called Tell Me Why By Declan Galbraith. He expresses so much in that song, about people today, and how much we have fought. Think about it really hard if we were to get into another World War we would destroy ourselves. The world is starting to call this a Nuclear generation, crafted from a tennis-ball-sized plutonium sphere, the Trinity bomb produced an explosion equal to 20,000 tonnes of TNT. That was back in 1945, so people think about what they have now, mo precise more accurate weapons. In war what ever “pact” we have with other countries will mean nothing. War is war and that will never change. So much of the world would be destroyed and most of the people with it. IF anyone survived it would be of an existence that you wish you would have died then as well. Earth as we know it, people are taking for granted, and were destroying it and ourselves. I guess it really goes to show how stupid the human race really is, we don’t want to realize or take responsibility for what we do. In the end we will die from that stupidity.
Spring break, were all out having our fun, thats what its for right? I was out with my friends, playing on the computer and with my bf a lot of spring break having a great time. I hadnt yet realized what was happening. Monday morning i have 5 people run up to me, asking if one of my friends had texted me. Tottaly confused i checked my phone, no texts. I walk to my 1st class and i see a group of my friends crying, i finally realized something was terribly wrong. And my cellphone rang. A drunk driver Saturday night hit one of my friends car. That man got out of his car, not a damn scratch on him but she was carried out in a black bag. There are no consequences the USA could ever give, that would suffice that would even begin to amount to the pain he has caused,me,my other friends, and most of all her parents. They always tell you, that pain, losses make us stronger, but i felt so weak. I felt there was nothing, just emptiness that i couldn’t help her. I posted about fear, and her parents must have faced the greatest fear in their life. And my friend as she realized that car was going to hit her and she wasnt coming out. Anyone who decides to read this and is of a drinking age, dont drive please. Yoiu could cuase unbareable pain to so many people as me and my friends had to deal with.
Ever been around people you just know don’t like you, and you really don’t like the. But unfortunately your stuck in the same building and nothing you can do about it. And they just don’t know when to leave you the hell alone, they always wanna find something to get under your skin but you try and ignore it! but it always ends up getting to you and its so annoying. Then you Finally say something to harsh for what it should have been, and you end up the trouble maker in the whole situation! not this other person, damn i hate people like that……..